Journal

So I am journaling. Well, my wife finally left me. You'd think I would of wrote about it or something. Maybe I did. I did write something a while ago and I amnot even sure where I put it. maybe it was in blogger or maybe it is in a word doc or some shit like that. So yup, I have kids, they probably will say bad words. My now offical X wife was super anal about bad words. She told me she wanted to fuck other dudes too. But whatever, she says now she never said it. but I do have to take my part in the toxitity of the relationship. I might be a narcasist but mybe she was too. Idk. But I love the kids a lot. I really gre with them. I am for sure me, and is that bad? So I have to live at my mom's. Well I guess I do not have to, but I felt like I had to. Now I kinda want to. I see value in it and I am excepting it. I know I have to take responsibility and except the hardest part of eventually having to see her with a new lover. Though is that the hardest part? I was already heart broken when she told me she wanted to have sex with other guys. We were on drugs so maybe it was skewed, but it truly hurt. I always thought about it. I tried to get counceling, I tried to talk to her. It was ruff. So as long as I know where I am at and be ok with it and love myself then I get to grow in a new alligning way. I do feel a little bit like WHY ME, or I GOT SKREWED. but so what? All I have to do is not worry or live in dought or self pitty. I know i amstrong in my own weird awesome and normal ways. I have value, I know she has value too. That kinda hurts to know she has value which makes me think again maybe she was right and I am scum. But that is not so in many ways. I remember being so upset and feeling neglected by not getting love and affection from her. I felt a lot of the time that it was not ok to be me.... It was like, dude you got kid, you cant be that person. I'm not gonna look at my love for music and being wild with my kids as a bad thing. It's a great thign. I deserve in my opinion what I want. I want my kids, I want my life the way I want it, so I will not worry and just get it. What to worry about. I am not gonna be like oh poor me ... or be scared. Im just gonna go get my kids and not let myself have fear of the future. She has them now, i always had a plan, and the plan is actually going good. I wished a lot. How she is I guess she couldn't handle my ways, and so many things I did not like about her, but I learned to love those things. Maybe now I can learn to move on from those things. I just am not gonna move on from my kids another year like this.

In and Out Burger Does Not Pay Managers 160K a year

Dude, I just read on the internet that In and Out Burger pays it's managers an average of 160,000 thousand dollars a year. I call bullshit. There is no way that could be true, and if it is I would like to see some evidence. You gotta be kidding me. There is no way. I could see 50k or may 70K, but 160,000K???? there is no way! I'll admit, I could be wrong. But in this case I would truly have to see it to believe it. And it claims that's the average and sometimes it's a little more. I think this has got to be bullshit, and if I'm wrong I am hella jealous.

and let me add.......

Am I the only one dude that doesn't think their food is any good??? I think it's a rip off of what McDonald's use to be. The menu is a knock off of the original McDonald's menu, and the damn place looks like an old school McDonald's with a crooked arch. I mean seriously, fuck In and Out. Their secret menu is bullshit too; I couldn't even tell they did anything different when they put mustard cooked into the meat. I was disappointed after all the hype I heard about how good it was. Carl's Jr.'s milkshakes are 100% times better than In and Out's. Thier burgers taste like a shittier version of the Del Taco Burger. I'm not impressed at all. I think In and Out's food taste low quality. Which could be why they can pay their managers  so well because they spend so little buying the cheapest meat, produce, bread, ice cream they can find.
Prove me wrong.

Thanks for reading,
Pizza Tizzle